I never finished it back then. I tried to play it a year or two ago and couldn't get past how awful the graphics and voice acting were, so I quit after the first 20 minutes or so.
I'm sure it has the best gameplay and story in the world though. Everyone keeps saying that.
Eh, don't feel bad. It was innovative, but it isn't good. The story is interesting but not good, the writing is terrible, the voice acting is terrible, the gameplay is mediocre, etc. It's a very important game and it really broke the mold and has influenced the use of RPG+FPS (though it has really taken a long time for people to really get to it, unfortunately) and it was a really interesting experience but as for the actual product, it doesn't hold up at all.
~Jason