Setting the record straight:
Ok - first off I want EVERYONE here to know I hold no grudges. There has been some ignorance displayed here on ALL sides (yes that incudes me) but also a lot of intelligence. Ok, so we have established I can't add these decorations to my level becuase of legal issues. I only hope you all take a moment though to think about Microsoft and what happens when a company holds a monopoly. The original authors of these works have given up their rights to Legend or whatever company made WOT. If I got permission from the copyright holders to use these decorations I doubt that the original creators will ever have been awknowledged by anyone in the company. I on the other hand subscribe to the view that you "Give Credit Where Credit Is Due".
In any case what am I supposed to do? I can't make my own decorations and I have nobody I can ask for help. I tried, looked, spent HOURS (I mean this too) on this subject. Why? You'll probably never understand - but I'll try to be clear and bare myself a little despite the fact that most likely I will be laughed at for this.
First off has anyhone bothered to read my signature? Does anyone know who that little charcter under my name is? For those that don't this is a peice of custom artwork depicting an artist's rendition of Elric of Melinbone'. The series of Dark Fantasy featuring this charcter come from Michael Moorcok. That sword Elric carries is his greatest strength and weakness. Elric is an albino, and the last of his kind due to his wrath - he has no strength of his own, and he depends on the blade to keep him alive. The blade drinks the souls of its' victinms, and as far as the sword is concerned what victim it gets it's power from is irrelevant. Elric has lost many dear friends due to the Stormbringers' hunger, and has fed off some of his loved ones very souls, and watched them die. This strange individual is about the only person who I view as a hero.
My signature pic sums up EXACTLY how I feel. It's not an overexaggeration, or a silly phrase. It sums up the essence of my being and the very attitide to life I hold. I won't go into the why's, what I have said here is enough. I excell at only a few things - one is teaching others how to make their own levels. The other is making my own, but in that area -as it seems a lot of areas where I can display creative potential - I am handicapped. Most likely I'll stop mapping altogether at some point. However the best work I have ever done - the most creative things coming out of these hands - these are displayed in my levels. It and a VERY few other things are LITERALLY what keep me alive. As an artist I am like Elric - I am weak - and I depend on something unholy - the thought of ending it and what this means to me as a Christain (yes you heard right) if I kill myself. The issue here is I have a cool level - just short of my cutting myslelf and preparing the image with my own blood on a peice of paper - and it cannot be completed because I lack certain things to do so. I do not expect you to respect me, or to understand. I merely request your acceptance of my statments. I am sorry for having offended a few of you here - I was hurt so I lashed out. I again re-iterate - I hold no grudges against any of you. Please unerstand that not only am I not willing to stop until I get what I need - I cannot stop.
So I am going to continue to search for the answer I need - just not here. I am also going to attempt once again to make some of the things I need and see if I have any luck doing so (so far I have not). Finally I will be scouring the web for pre-fabs made for public use. All this is delaying the completion of my level, and I fear now it will not be completed. Close this topic if you want - I'm not getting what I need here and I really don't have anything else to say to those who have assembled here.
- Deathbliss