Rostam said:
They bother me because every time I dream or daydream I can't be doing something real. Last night my imagination started telling me I should buy a bigger knife because someone is going to try and kill me tomorrow. I snapped out of it and started thinking about stuff that is really going on in my life. Stuff that should be fixed... but every time I think about what to do for an answer I wonder off to my world.
What I'm about to say is completely serious, and without any malintent. Ros, when your imagination starts to tell you to do things, I would seriously consider talking to a professional. Forumers can help you get through bad dreams, pissy girlfriends, and drunken fathers, but this seems a bit more serious. I daydream and let my mind wander quite a bit, but I can always control it or stop it. Also, and this might be important for you, my daydreams have never asked me to do anything before. That would bother me enough to go talk to someone who could figure out if it's just overactive imagination or something more serious.
As far as dreams, my daydreams never really go anywhere, and I try to snap out of them as fast as I can. My dreams at night, however, are quite varried. I often have dreams where horrible things happen to people all around me; family members die (sometimes at the hands of other family members, usually my father or an accident I cause), houses burn down and vehicles get smashed up, and I wake up in the dream, thinking, trying to figure out if it's a dream, and conclude that "no, it is real" even though I am asleep. When I finally wake up, I'm freaked out whether my car/house/family is really mangled/torched/hurt, until I sort things out. Those are the worst.
I've had lots of dreams that I'm part of some sort of rebellion or uprising, trying to correct some horrific injustice. I'm usually a hero in these, and they're lots of fun
Then there's the dreams that I get everything I've ever wanted, a new car, a better computer, acceptance into the right school...and I wake up, and they're all not real.
The ones that get me the most emotionally worked up are the dreams where no matter what I do, everyone misinterprets me, gets angry at me, or doesn't care what's going on. There could be some horrific injustice being carried out that I'm trying to correct, but no one will believe me. I could be bleeding to death, or have dire word of an impending nuclear attack, or be the messanger bringing news to flee, and all that "everyone else" cares about is whatever their doing, and ignores my warnings, and instead gets upset with
me for bugging them. The worst of these is when I'm accused of something I didn't do. Those dreams leave me nothing but pissed off and upset...and then I wake up, and while still being emotionally drained, I am very relieved that it was just a dream.
