Just to clear things up a bit...

[Zur]

You can't get more serious than this:

1. I have been spamming a little lately just to pass time.
2. I have issues but these are emotional and not mental in nature. I probably have some form of PSTD.
3. This means that I have trouble judging if something is potentially shocking to the eyes of others since there is little that shocks me personally.
4. Due to the fine line that exists on this forum between what is acceptable and what is not, it's not surprising if every now and then that the content of some posts will offend some people.
5. Despite this, the warning on the OT forum is pretty clear and you accepted this possibility by accessing it.
6. If you have a problem with my attitude or anything else, it might be helpful to actually say something about it.
7. If you think I'm abnormal (PSTD can happen to anyone), just look up "Operation Cathedral" and you'll understand some of the bull**** I went through as a bystander.
8. I don't know why I'm posting this because I have no need to justify myself.
9. BuF rules.
10. I request a political forum so some of us can keep our sanity.

 

[T2A`]

So, the cops busted your child porn ring and you got PTSD?

Tough break.

 

[Zur]

You seem to have skipped the word bystander. But, yes, tough break as you say. I'd avoid considering me as a new plaything to make fun of as my condition means that I'm missing some push buttons. Plus, being an asshole with people is good therapy for me. It allows to exteriorize latent anger.

 

[Exus Tecius]

what the hell is a ptsd az ?

 

[Jacks:Revenge]

10. I request a political forum so some of us can keep our sanity.

actually, this would be a great idea.
like, serious.

 

[Zur]

what the hell is a ptsd az ?

Something that is apparently common on battlefields but can happen to anyone subjected to a life endangering threat.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Posttraumatic_stress_disorder

 

[Exus Tecius]

oh i heard about that before iirc.

 

[Iron Archer]

You won't find me in political threads anymore in part for that reason. I've had enough of them. They can drive some people crazy, and I'm not going to be that person.

 

[Jackal]

It's a gaming forum. Not a political debate forum.

If you want a political forum, then go somewhere else.

Here, I've even done some work for you people:

http://www.politicalforum.com/ < WOW NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT!!!!

http://www.politicalcrossfire.com/

As you can see, a quick google search will allow you to find forums and people who give a **** about political crap. True, they aren't video game forums. However, I think you'll find alot more arguments and political stuff there.

 

[T2A`]

How the hell does someone become a bystander when child porn is involved? Did someone make you hold the camera? Was your hard drive full of preteen videos seized? Did you stumble across a photo shoot?

 

[Zur]

Are you same T2A` that went from a skateboaring accident to being some kind of ace on UT2004 ? If so, I'm surprised at how cynical you've become because you used to be much more friendly. To answer your question, some of the people arrested happened to have a family. Furthermore, the press in some countries didn't hesitate to publish full names and addresses.

 

[Jackal]

We all know about what happend Azura. I don't know why you continue to bring it up. Just keep posting as normal man.

 

[haarg]

1. Congrats on the ****ty threads I guess.
2. It might help if you stopped blaming your problems on others.
3. Nothing you have posted has been shocking, just pathetic.
4. Again, you haven't offended anyone, everyone just thinks your problems are exceedingly boring and not thread-worthy.
5. See #4
6. See #1-4
7. pix or it didn't happen
8. "I have no need to justify myself" Thanks for trying. Grade: F.
9. BuF rules.
10. If you have a problem with a post report it.

 

[Exus Tecius]

lol at haarg tag.
yeah dont worry be happy baby
oh and jackal i love to agree with your posts this time.

 

[Zur]

We all know about what happend Azura. I don't know why you continue to bring it up. Just keep posting as normal man.

Because every now and then, someone can't help replying along the lines that I'm some sort of nutcase (see this link). I don't have a problem with that but I do have a big problem with being judged by someone else's standards, especially someone that's nice and cosy and doesn't have a worry in life except a receding hairline .

@Haarg: Yes, I guess it's boring to read from your side. However, this kind of disorder takes time to heal and it's stopped me enjoying a few years of my life. So, if it is generally considered immature to point the finger at other people, there's nothing actually wrong with it making me feel angry. Whether I should bring this up at all is another question but in my state I'd have no trouble telling you every single detail of my life. I have to mentally sort what is convenient and what is not whereas the average Joe just trusts his feelings to decide what is awkward or not. And sometimes I make mistakes.

 

[BobTheBeheader]

Maybe Azura was a bystander the same way T2A` was a bystander when that nutcase shot up his school.

 

[dotnetbeast]

Azura, thanks for the information.

I dont give a ****, but thanks anyway.

 

[Zur]

I'm not pulling any heart strings here. It just ****ing annoying that people assume I'm playing violin when I have something like this to say. **** what happened because what is actually important is what goes on inside. You all obviously don't understand the actual impact of something like this and assume that people around you function the same way you do and continue to do so whatever happens. Well you're wrong to think that way. I'm not judging anyone so please do the same or buzz off with your reality show standards.

I dont give a ****, but thanks anyway.

Meh.

 

[dotnetbeast]

Glad you understand.

 

[Zur]

Oh sure I understand. I've spent years trying to understand people that didn't give a flying crap about anything letting the world take the **** slide or people that gave up on me because they assumed I was being a debilitated retard on purpose. You can't get more understanding than that.

If any of you are in the deep **** one day, don't be surprised if no helping hands come your way. That's what happens when it's to each his own. If this means that in the long run society dissolves and people have to fend for themselves, I'd have no second thoughts about picking up a club and slamming it into someone's head if I have to.