I'm getting tired of finding all the good girls taken. So, one of these girls is going to recieve this in their mailbox... She's probably the closest thing to "My perfect wife/gf" I have ever seen. Sadly though, she has a boyfriend back home (were on a college campus). I've only seen 1 off campus relationship last, so I figure "Why not". I wrote this poem up and will hope she doesn't think of me as a freak - I doubt she will though, me and her have talked frequently.
Yes, I do write a lot
Where the single letter is on a line is where I did a drop caps thing in a different font. Just tack it on to the word on the next line.
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To Amanda…
Where does my heart lead me?
Why has it's call not been answered?
When will it feel a response?
Who will not leave it unanswered?
I feel heavy and sick
torn between reality and dreams
breathing is a feat to accomplish
torn between living and loving
Compassion is an understatement
I see nothing but beauty and purity from you
speak your mind to me now
so that I may rest and be healed
M
atch my words please with your eyes
See within the divinities without lies
I
nto the sun I stare with all my might
C
apture us now, take us with flight.
Your amber glow warms my soul
Invigorating is the hope of contact
I do not desire, I need
what else is there to feed?
Please speak to me, give me a sign
Torture is all I receive and hear
letting you and nothing else come to mind
something, just something, speak to me not from behind
Walls I see of people and fear
Break them down I will - all for you, please come near
Don't leave me in this shell of questions
absent is my state of loss and despair
I feel so weak without you even knowing how it really is
I want to speak - dare I say the truth?
What I feel about you is greater than most
Living a tortured existence, bound under a host
People point and laugh, do they cry?
Tears of anguish flood my face, torture is living high
Something to speak to my spirit please, something now
I have waited and waited all for what, when I bow?
Don't walk past me please, let me express to you my thoughts
I will hear everything of yours, and mend the anguish brought
For nothing can quench what I feel excluding God's will
nothing man can accomplish to see or think, nothing within your sacred hill
Your body and mind are of the greatest of temples among us
God has truly reveled in your existence
H
ow he could go without blessing you more
I don't understand why he hasn't opened your door
Reach for me, take me into your sight
Softly I will speak and ne'er will I bite
grasp my hand and walk with me
may we both walk together in the light.
Are my dreams in vain?
Do I trod down a barred path?
Should I turn back whence I came,
living my life as if you are just that name?
E
at of my fruits, for they are sweetened for you.
L
ive on, with or without my will to ensue.
L
ock my cage if you must,
E
vermore will I leave you to your love, your life, your trust.
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I understand that you have a boyfriend back home (at least that’s what I was told), but I really felt this was necessary for me at least. Expression is what keeps my going. Expression quenches the pain that racks my body. Expression helps me to remember who I am and inspires me to stop being what I’m not. I’m sure you’ve figured out who’s written this by now, but if not, don’t worry We are all loved in secret by a million different souls, lusted upon by 2 million different eyes, but we only walk with 2 legs of those at a time. May the ones you journey with carry you across unlimited miles of happiness, and may their soul strengthen you. It will hurt me no more to see you carry on with someone besides me. I am but a writer expressing emotion to satisfy the soul.
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Ok, that's it. Think I should go ahead? I want to, but I'm not totally sure
Yes, I do write a lot
Where the single letter is on a line is where I did a drop caps thing in a different font. Just tack it on to the word on the next line.-------------=================---------------
To Amanda…
Where does my heart lead me?
Why has it's call not been answered?
When will it feel a response?
Who will not leave it unanswered?
I feel heavy and sick
torn between reality and dreams
breathing is a feat to accomplish
torn between living and loving
Compassion is an understatement
I see nothing but beauty and purity from you
speak your mind to me now
so that I may rest and be healed
M
atch my words please with your eyes
See within the divinities without lies
I
nto the sun I stare with all my might
C
apture us now, take us with flight.
Your amber glow warms my soul
Invigorating is the hope of contact
I do not desire, I need
what else is there to feed?
Please speak to me, give me a sign
Torture is all I receive and hear
letting you and nothing else come to mind
something, just something, speak to me not from behind
Walls I see of people and fear
Break them down I will - all for you, please come near
Don't leave me in this shell of questions
absent is my state of loss and despair
I feel so weak without you even knowing how it really is
I want to speak - dare I say the truth?
What I feel about you is greater than most
Living a tortured existence, bound under a host
People point and laugh, do they cry?
Tears of anguish flood my face, torture is living high
Something to speak to my spirit please, something now
I have waited and waited all for what, when I bow?
Don't walk past me please, let me express to you my thoughts
I will hear everything of yours, and mend the anguish brought
For nothing can quench what I feel excluding God's will
nothing man can accomplish to see or think, nothing within your sacred hill
Your body and mind are of the greatest of temples among us
God has truly reveled in your existence
H
ow he could go without blessing you more
I don't understand why he hasn't opened your door
Reach for me, take me into your sight
Softly I will speak and ne'er will I bite
grasp my hand and walk with me
may we both walk together in the light.
Are my dreams in vain?
Do I trod down a barred path?
Should I turn back whence I came,
living my life as if you are just that name?
E
at of my fruits, for they are sweetened for you.
L
ive on, with or without my will to ensue.
L
ock my cage if you must,
E
vermore will I leave you to your love, your life, your trust.
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I understand that you have a boyfriend back home (at least that’s what I was told), but I really felt this was necessary for me at least. Expression is what keeps my going. Expression quenches the pain that racks my body. Expression helps me to remember who I am and inspires me to stop being what I’m not. I’m sure you’ve figured out who’s written this by now, but if not, don’t worry
We are all loved in secret by a million different souls, lusted upon by 2 million different eyes, but we only walk with 2 legs of those at a time. May the ones you journey with carry you across unlimited miles of happiness, and may their soul strengthen you. It will hurt me no more to see you carry on with someone besides me. I am but a writer expressing emotion to satisfy the soul.-----------------=================---------------
Ok, that's it. Think I should go ahead? I want to, but I'm not totally sure
