Originally posted by Ballistophobia
Don, I find myself saying "Life is a contradiction" a lot. I am no exception, one minute I can be mourning a complete stranger's death/pain or laughing at it. Just depends on the mood I'm in and this is because I'm a human, just chemicals and electricity moving through organic tissue. Essentially, we are no different than computers. Scientists have even proven we have programmed actions and reactions to things even at birth, meaing free will only goes so far. If you have seen the movie the Thirteenth Floor, then you might be able to understand how I feel about being human. When Vincent D'niofrio and the main duder in the movie especially finds out he's just code in a computer, that's exactly the way I relate to life. Nothing matters, nothing exists, since when it ends all the information in my brain will deteriorate, this very post never happened. I'm using foresight and hindsight simultaneously to come up with this conclusion. So that's why I'm a hedonist. I also have a problem with aberrated elation, which is where the whole contradiction problem comes in, yet it's still pleasure. Anyways, enough of this rant, I gotta find some weed or something.
Yeah sometimes I feel like that. I'm tiredy so I'm not gonna rant, but the fact is one of my BIGGEST issues is that I am a very big pessimist. I won't enjoy myself so much for fear that something will go wrong. The glass is always half-empty
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