I believe in your idea the way life should be, and I am sorry that you are having troubles at home. But don't give up be strong be tough and never give in.. I am going to tell you something about me that I would normally not care to discuss. When I left for Gulf war many years back I left a wife and 2 kids behind which is the hardest thing to do believe me watching the tears roll down my wifes eyes and my kids not knowing what was happening crying in sadness for which they knew not the reason for. I would be called a liar if I said I didn't pore my guts out in that moment of sadness, I did not know if I was ever going to return to my wife and kids again knowing what situations layed ahead of me or that if I would be alive after the war, think about it try to imagine what the reaction of your wife would be if one day she receives a call or a letter from your commanding officer saying I am sorry to inform you that your husband was killed in active duty and that he served his country well and will be missed.. Kinda puts a knot in your stomach. Well I would say if it wasn't for my wife and kids I would have not had something to drive me on to make me stay alive so that I could oneday get of the transport plane and see my wife standing in a crowd of people with tears in here eyes and my kids crying their hearts out not in sadness but in joy, gladness a happy moment in your life that you wished would never end.. I got that chance thanks to her I held what I loved so dear in my heart the whole time I was on duty getting shot at taking lives of people that I would never get to know, watching people die all around seeing good friends killed remembering the good times we shared and thanking God I made it through another day alive. What I witnessed over there was horrible compared to the way things are over here. If you only knew how glad I was to be home the great USA thanking God that our Country still has its freedom and that I hoped it would never get like some of the other countries I have seen /~unreal/ubb/html/frown.gif I pray every day for those in other countries that are fighting to stay alive every second of their life and hope they get the freedom they want so that they to can be proud of their country and maybe one day I will get to meet them to shake their hands and drink a joyious moment and gladly call them my friend.. The moment I got off the plane just to see my wife and kids in the crowd was enough for me to say I made it I defied all odds that were stacked up against me and quoted my wife looked just as good to me then as she did walking down that alter and she looks better to me everyday I am near her. My heart lets me know everyday how special she is to me. I know we have our rough times but thats to be expected I don't regret ever marrying her I would be lost without her and my to kids they make me thankful to be alive nomatter how bad its getting out there in the world but I don't let it get me down. I'm sure their is still love in your heart for your wife or else you would have not married her spend some time with her give her any attention she wants rekindle your flame with her but don't give up on her because my wife did not give up believing in me and for that I owe her alot.. Now quit sulking and get your butt back in this forum that is an order soldier!!!
[This message has been edited by The-Wraith (edited 11-23-1999).]
[This message has been edited by The-Wraith (edited 11-23-1999).]
