Most of you know have come to know me as someone erratic in character. Well, I'm going to come up front.
My life pretty much sucks. I'm near 40 and nowhere. Since my father got accused of belonging to some kiddy porn online group in 98 and having an accident working as a student life has been a tad unpleasant. I've been unemployed for twelve out of the last fourteen years. I hate the guts of recruitors (I fancy throwing a bottle of piss at one), I despise this country and I'm worried that my back/hernia could become a handicap. Yet, I can't budge and existence has become aimless. The most recent thing to happen was going to the psychiatric hospital. For the past year I've basically spent time on social security oscillating between the bed and the computer silently cursing the world around me.
To outsiders I'm continually bringing this on myself but that's not true. I'm too scaredy cat to top myself, not that depressed to be honest, so I guess the way is forward. But I am scared for the future. Scared of having to wait and wait because of others, of getting old and passing it all by.
So, where would you start to fix this almighty mess ?
P.S: Wish there was a "fix it all" coach you could phone up. Someone like Fonzy.
My life pretty much sucks. I'm near 40 and nowhere. Since my father got accused of belonging to some kiddy porn online group in 98 and having an accident working as a student life has been a tad unpleasant. I've been unemployed for twelve out of the last fourteen years. I hate the guts of recruitors (I fancy throwing a bottle of piss at one), I despise this country and I'm worried that my back/hernia could become a handicap. Yet, I can't budge and existence has become aimless. The most recent thing to happen was going to the psychiatric hospital. For the past year I've basically spent time on social security oscillating between the bed and the computer silently cursing the world around me.
To outsiders I'm continually bringing this on myself but that's not true. I'm too scaredy cat to top myself, not that depressed to be honest, so I guess the way is forward. But I am scared for the future. Scared of having to wait and wait because of others, of getting old and passing it all by.
So, where would you start to fix this almighty mess ?
P.S: Wish there was a "fix it all" coach you could phone up. Someone like Fonzy.
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