Originally posted by FireSlash
care? no.
im just a tiny insignificant blip in the world. my actions are irrelivent, and i im used onyl as a scapegoat and work horse. if im forced into a group of 4 people, i do the whole project, because i care about my grade, they do not. i am not cared about, and noone would care if i did not do the work, as they do not expect it, yet do not congradulate it, nor care. online, noone would even notice if i just dissapeared. my parents pretend to care.
noone in this world actually cares for me. they might know me,. be friends with me, and talk with me, but not go as far as caring. if i fall sick, noone would come to my bedside, except to administer medicine and check ups. my parents care little of my talents (the few i possese) and have done nothing to nurture them.
so, no. noone would really care if i died.
Hey, cheer up buddy
I've felt the same way recently. I felt like nobody in the world cared, and nothing I did was worth anything to anyone. I also thought that I was disliked and everyone wanted me to die. But when some of my friends explained to me what I'm truely worth and how much they valued me, I realised that I wasn't so bad afterall.
And about your parents: they don't pretend to care; why would they put a roof over your head and food for you on the table? Would they pay for your schooling? Would they let you use the computer and pay the phone bills you crank up for the internet? My parents do that and much more, and I've never doubted they they care about me. You probably just think that they don't care right now because from the looks of it, you are going through some troubling times at the moment, and when you go through these times, you tend to think of everything negatively. Believe me, I can tell. I've been there, and am still there, but right now I'm sorta at an "air pocket" which gives me a glimpse of what things will be like when I get through this mess.
Here, come and post in The BuF Manor, tell Zenda about what's bothering you, and I can guarentee he'll make you feel significantly better. Just look what he said for me earlier:tup: He could be like the BuF Psyciatrist
And I'm sure a lot of people here would care if you died... hell you've got one of the coolest looking avatars!:tup:
Hope you feel better soon, and seriously talk to Zenda, PM him or something... he's really cool and always has a kind, posetive word to offer:tup: