Well I have a herniated disc in my back between L4 and L5. I originally herniated the other side of that disc from a skating injury back in 1996, and they went in and corrected the disc. Everything was fine until last summer when I went to the Beach Water Park in Cincinnati and went down a slide. I felt my back pop, and knew it that if I was in pain the next morning that I would be ****. Well the next day came, and sure enough, I was in pain. It wasn't as bad as the last time, and I did some swimming, so that helped take away a lot of the pain, but it is still kind of ****ed, and I am requiring surgery to correct it again. So tomorrow 10/14/2003 at 1:30pm EST I will get cut open again to correct my back.
The funny thing is, is that I am more scared this time, than I was last time. I found out after they almost killed me last time, that I am exstremely sensitive to anesthesia. I guess they came close to killing me last time, so I made sure to tell them this time about my problem with it. Another concern is for some reason I feel like my odds have been halfed since I have already this kind of surgery before. I know that it is all in my head, but it's driving me crazy. It also bothers me knowing how ****y things are going to be after the surgery. I won't be able to bend over to tie my shoes. If I drop something it is lost unless somebody can pick it up for me. I won't be able to sit in a chair for any amount of time, so video games and computers are out. When I sleep I have to sleep flat on my back, and that is not comfortable to me. Basicly I am going to be as fragile as a 100 year old person as of tomorrow night assuming they don't kill me.
I just thought I would let you guys know that I am not leaving, I am just not able to sit at a computer. I might run a network cable from my router to my bed so I can talk to you guys, but we will see. Those of you that are spiritual please keep me in your prayers. Just thought I would post this now since I don't feel like getting any work done today.
The funny thing is, is that I am more scared this time, than I was last time. I found out after they almost killed me last time, that I am exstremely sensitive to anesthesia. I guess they came close to killing me last time, so I made sure to tell them this time about my problem with it. Another concern is for some reason I feel like my odds have been halfed since I have already this kind of surgery before. I know that it is all in my head, but it's driving me crazy. It also bothers me knowing how ****y things are going to be after the surgery. I won't be able to bend over to tie my shoes. If I drop something it is lost unless somebody can pick it up for me. I won't be able to sit in a chair for any amount of time, so video games and computers are out. When I sleep I have to sleep flat on my back, and that is not comfortable to me. Basicly I am going to be as fragile as a 100 year old person as of tomorrow night assuming they don't kill me.
I just thought I would let you guys know that I am not leaving, I am just not able to sit at a computer. I might run a network cable from my router to my bed so I can talk to you guys, but we will see. Those of you that are spiritual please keep me in your prayers. Just thought I would post this now since I don't feel like getting any work done today.