today's long annoying rant i have...

Ok, for once I found a problem that IS unusual, it's not the big problem keeping me stressed, but it's not such a small thing either...
If you've been on the chat channle lately, you've probebly had first hand experience of my long, boring, annoying, daily rants about my life sucking. This isn't one of those rants, but it's not really any better...
Anyways, on to the problem:
If you haven't already noticed, my screen name on the chat channle is "Cryognosis", and I more recently made a back-up screen name "Pyrognosis", which I commonly used anyways scince I usually have 2 bots in the channle at a time (at first it was because I constantly get dissed from the channle for no apparent reason, now it's more of a way to ease my boredom)...
Well anyways, I've been having a personal problem with the screen name Pyrognosis, not exactly about the screen name itself, or anything it could be suggesting (other then me being weird).
Well, Cryognosis, normal everyday screen name, the name itself, ya, it's unique, but the screen name is a normal screen name like any other.
Pyrognosis, it SHOULD be a normal everyday screen name, but there just seems to be something unusual about it: I sort of feel wierd when using it... It's not a good feeling, it's quite disturbing especailly scince I know what the feeling is of, but I'd rather not say what the feeling is.
Yes, it's a weird disturbing feeling that I want to avoid...

...But at the same time, I find it strangly satisfying...

...So your problebly thinking "so? just don't use it, it's not really worth it, is it?", but that's kind of the problem. Now that i felt the feeling, the other screen names don't seem so good, the other screen names I use don't give that feeling scince their just normal everyday screen names, so it doesn't give me that satisifying, yet weird disturbing feeling. So I don't really appreciate the other screen names as much...

So now to end the rant:What should I really do about this...? I can't really decide on this, I know I said that before in some other threads, but this time I don't even know what to do about it AT ALL. All that I can think of doing is this:
1)Just not use it, The feeling is for some weird reason nice, but the feeling is weird and disturbing at the same time. It's not a good feeling.
2)Use the screen name as much as I normally would, scince I can't get the same feeling from any other screen name.
3)use it, and not use any other screen names, there's something specail about that screen name when I use it, so it shouldn't go to waste at all...

(note:I will not accept simple 1 sentence long answers)

mute:hmmm... I guess that would make it easier...

su3000:lol...

nemephosis: But... Isn't what I told you enough information...? I really don't want to tell what the feeling's about (I don't even really know why I get it, although I do have a couple of guesses about it...), and besides, I never could really explain things right anyways, I screwed up on attempting to discribe things enough times to almost garrentee it won't come out right...
And it probebly won't make scince even if I did explain it right... :|

Ok, I'll say it again, but more simple:
I decided I would use 2 screen names, Cryognosis or Pyrognosis.
However, I'm having problems with the screen name Pyrognosis.

Pyrognosis-There's more to it then just picking a prefix and sufix out of the dictionary and putting it together: For some reason, I get a odd feeling, I kind of understand it, but so far it's not something I want to feel, and something i don't want to talk about at all. It also seems to tempt me to act like someone I'm not, sort of like as if someone else is trying to take over my mind or something, except for the fact that it's not another person and I'm basicly doing it to myself. Sometimes I'm refered to as Pyro or PyroG when using this screen name.

good-Well, there is something quite unique with me and this screen name... The feeling it gives out when I control a account with this screen name seems satisfying, I sort of like the feeling. Using this screen name along with another screen name and trying to make someone think that I'm 2 seperate people controling 2 seperate accounts is easier, scince I'm not really myself in a literal sense, that is if I let it happen...

bad-The feeling it gives out that I for some reason find satisfying is the same feeling that I feel nagitively about in basicly every way possible (minus hating and fearing. Also it's not that bad scince the satisfaction I get is enough to counter-balance it). Also, not being myself... I'm just completely against that: I am who I am, not some freaky person I don't even know.

Cryognosis-The ordinary screen name, and the origanle screen name I created scince I decided on making a screen name better then something like "Ice Lord". I find nothing unusual about this, and the name is nice. It goes well with mage characters scince in RPGs my spell of choice would be a cold/ice elemental spell... and that's what the screen name was made for. It sounds better to me then Pyrognosis. The screen name means knowladge of cold (because "gnosis" means "knowladge of" and "cryo" means "cold"), however I don't have any advanced knowladge of cold, but this doesn't bother me scince not much people even know what Cryo means. The screen name of Pyrognosis was a result of this screen name. I have been refered to as Cryo, Cry, and CryoG with this screen name.

good-Origanle, unique, and not taken from anything. This screen name has no real big disturbing history behind it, just a simple look through a dictionary and the luck of finding "gnosis". The screen name goes well with ice mage RPG characters because of it's definition, and sounds better the way it is. There is no ****ed up feelings when using this screen name except for wanting to beat the living crap out of Pyrognosis occasionaly.

bad-Normal, if it had at least the good part of the feeling that comes when using Pyrognosis as a screen name, it wouldn't be so hard deciding between using this and Pyrognosis. That's all that really comes to mind...